Confessions to Gilbert

What is this I'm feeling, I just can't explain

When you're near, I'm just not the same

I'm tryin' to hide it, try not to show it.

It's crazy, how could it be...

From Multiply, Friendster, YM to Facebook naging dakilang researcher ako. Pati radio station ginamit ko para ma-greet ka lang. Kulang nalang i-flames ko ang pangalan natin dalawa. Hindi ko na matandaan kung ginawa ko eh. Pati si Mr. Kupido dinamay ko sa kabaliwan ko. :-)

Then nanghatak pa ako ng mga kasabwat sa buhay pag-ibig kong ito. Tulad nalang ng sumusunod:

- Pinilit ko ang isang batalyon (exaggerated!) para puntahan namin ang bahay nyo. Nagkamali pa ako sa location akala ko dun sa lugar na 'yon ang bahay nyo. But it's ok kasi pwede naman magtanong within the vicinity parin naman kaya napuntahan din namin. Ah dito pala. Sandali lang bababa po ako para kumatok. Nagulat sila akala nila gagawin ko. Joke lang sabi ko. :-)

- Once or twice a year (haha!) may pinapatawag ako sa opisina ninyo through her cellphone (para loudspeaker) just to let me hear your voice. Hindi kasi kita kayang kausapin baka ma-obvious masira ang plano.

- Sa isang event may nag-stolen shot sa'yo pero syempre hindi ako. Kaya lang sayang close-up pa naman. Na-delete nang hindi inaasahan. Pero nagkaroon ulit ng second chance kaya lang blurred.      

Oh-my-goodness. Ilan lang yan sa mga natatandaan ko hindi ko na matandaan kung ano pa yung iba kong kalokohan. Haha! 

Thank you my ever dearest PARTIDO. You know who you are. Such craziness. :-)

So what's my point?

Here it goes...

If a person wants to be a part of your life 

they will make an obvious effort to do so. 

Don’t bother reserving a space in your heart 

for people who do not make an effort to stay.

Finally, after almost four long years.

Seasons change and time erases the tears. I remember the boy but I don't remember the feeling anymore. Effect siguro ng anesthesia na dumaloy sa ugat papunta puso ko. Whatever. Haha! 

Sa haba ng tinakbo ko. Eto na yung tinatawag na finish line. Hanggang dito nalang talaga. Alam ko madaming beses ko na nabanggit sa blog na 'to (redundant na nga). Pero this time it's REAL. No alibis. No grudges. No bitterness. No what if's. No if only's. No worries. No expectations. Just acceptance that it happens for a reason. I don't have any regrets just lessons learned. Move on and let go. :-)

Life is beautiful indeed.  

I'm happy.

By the way,

It's not about who put you down and made you feel bad, 

it's about who made you SMILE again.

PRAY it works. Thank you po, Papa God! :-)