Mga Litrato sa Isla

Kahit hindi po ako propesyonal na litratista, mahilig po ako kumuha ng mga samu't saring anggulo. Para sa aking sariling pananaw, dito ko nakikita ang ganda ng mundo. Hindi man malayo ang nararating ng lente ng aking kamera..para sa akin ang mga simpleng kuha na ito ay may malalim na kahulugan. Narito ang ilan sa aking mga kuha mula sa aking paglalakbay.

Isla ng Puerto Galera (Oriental Mindoro)

katanghaliang tapat

Isla ng Boracay (Malay, Aklan)

nakatagong kagandahan

katahimikan sa paglubog ng araw

mapag-isang bato :-)

klasikong Shang-rila Hotel

maayong dapithapon

turistang magsing-irog

banal na santuwaryo

ang pagtatagpo...

sa hindi tamang panahon. [bigla ko lang naisip :-)]

Hotel Lobby

Sa isang hotel lobby magkausap kami ni Jacq. Sinabi ko na pupunta ka, kaya hindi nalang ako magpapakita sa event. Sinabi ko nalang na kapag nagkita kayo ngitian ka na lamang niya.  Samantala, sa loob ng isang function hall.  Nakaupo si Jacq habang inaayos ang kanyang damit nang makarinig siya ng usapan mula sa inyong grupo. Ang inyong pinag-uusapan ay ang nobya mo, narinig ni Jacq na sinabi mo na hindi na kayo nag-uusap at parang nagkakalabuan na kayo. Makalipas ang ilang sandali, nilapitan mo si Jacq. Nagulat si Jacq dahil bigla mo siyang kinausap: 

Gilbert: Pinsan mo ba si Fatimah?
Jacq: Oo, bakit?
Gilbert: May gusto sana akong itanong?
Jacq: Ano yun?
Gilbert: (Nakangiting binanggit) Pwede ba makuha cellphone number niya?
Jacq: (Nagmamadaling kinuha ang kanyang cellphone) Okay, sige.  Bilisan mo i-text mo na siya agad.
Gilbert: Oo i-text ko na siya.
Jacq: Ngayon na ha!
Gilbert: Oo, sige.

Kinilig naman ako habang kinukwento ni Jacq ang tagpong ito..sa PANAGINIP niya. Ang nasa isip ko nung mga oras na iyon, masaya ako kasi kahit sa panaginip naalala mo ako ng bongga (haha!). Pambihira, matagal-tagal ko na din hinihintay kung kailan mo tatanungin ang cell number ko, sa wakas, alam mo na (feeling!).  Nakakatawa lang na kahit sa panaginip ng ibang tao, naglalakbay tayo. Ang tanong ko naman sa aking sarili, kamusta na kaya ang estado ng inyong relasyon? Kahit na single pa ang facebook status mo, alam ko mutual kayong dalawa. Bakit ko naman alam? Sa nagsusumigaw na wall post mo..(aha! sorry, tinitingnan ko kasi profile mo).  Isa pa dahil napapansin ko lang kapag nakikita ko kayong dalawa sa simbahan. Baka isipin mo kasi sinusundan kita. Matagal-tagal na akong hindi nag-log in para maiwasan ang profile mo. Nag-uumpisa na akong mag-move on. Hindi na kita nababanggit sa tuwing magkausap kami ni Jacq. Nag-set din ng several gimmicks si Jacq kaya lang umuuwi ako ng bigo dahil sa pag-asang makatagpo ng iba (ngeh! ano ba yun?!). Hindi naman talaga yun ang intention, gusto lang nila na maiba ang environment ko (ayun naman pala!). 

One of the greatest evidences that one's love is true is their willingness to wait patiently for the one they love.  

Ngunit sa kabila ng pag-iwas naging madalas naman kitang nakikita at may pagkakataon pa na nagkatinginan tayo at biglang iiwas (walang kupas mula noon hanggang ngayon). Sabi ko sa sarili ko, parang nawala lahat ng plano ko na kalimutan ang nararamdaman ko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit o ano ang dahilan bakit hanggang ngayon ikaw pa rin. Wala ka naman hakbang na ginagawa at hindi mo pa rin ako napapansin kahit nagkakasalubong tayo. Tapos ngayon, ang panaginip ni Jacq. Mabuti pa sa panaginip nagpaparamdam ka.  Masyado naman yata akong kinilig (nakakainis!). Isa lang ang ibig sabihin, hanggang ngayon crush parin kita (nakakaiyak!). Panahon nalang ang makakapagsabi kung hanggang kailan (ganun ba yun!).  Kung pwede lang kumatok sa puso mo ginawa ko na, pero paano ako kakatok kung alam ko naman na nakalaan sa iba. Mas magandang gawin, uupo nalang ako at maghihintay. Pambihira ka talaga Gilbert!

Total Eclipse of the Heart

When do we know that it is destiny? Will he catch me if I fall? Will he be mine or he may be the same person who will pass by in my life? Shall I give myself a chance or choose to let him go?

Life has full of unforeseen reasons on how long you should hold on and when do you need to let go. Whatever life may bring what matter is we should learn how to overcome its consequences. No matter how weak we are, at the end of the day we just realized that we're standing still and our faith strengthens us. We will be strong enough to believe that we survived and keep on moving on towards the direction where we found every piece of ourselves. We learn how to grow as a matured individual. It’s the circle of life. Someone will walked away, will leave you behind, will gives you pain but you should never let go of the faith that there's somebody undoubtedly meant for you.

Better to be Unknown

December 30, 2009
Wednesday
11.00 pm

You are a stranger, as well I
At first, I don't mind or care who you are
I see you around, but there's no magic behind
He's 20 and I'm 26, this can't be

I woke up one morning, asking myself why
Of all people, I dreamed of this young man
It's a tale of two individuals born six-years apart
In spite of differences they fell in love

It's inexplicable because it's you and me
You don't even glance nor smile at me
There's no gesture that may catch my heart
In reality we're worlds apart

When I saw you, I'd rather changed my way
One day you saw me, you suddenly turned away
When you look at me, I pretended I didn't notice
One day I look at you, you snob at me

I don't know what's going on your mind
Maybe you also have questions like mine
But it bothers me, are you conceited?
Maybe it’s inadvertent but it cause pain inside

One day, a sweet surprise from Above
For the first time, you showed me your smile
Is this real or maybe a dream?
Undeniably, there's bliss inside me

I don't know what happened as days goes by
I never see you around for a long time
Do I mistakenly thought it was a start
And maybe there's no such thing on your mind

But then, thank you for your gentle gesture
I started to fall but there's something wrong
Maybe our story has no end nor beginning
Instead, we remained as strangers as before.

A smile costs nothing but gives much. It enriches those who receive without making poorer those who give. It takes but a moment, but the memory of it sometimes lasts forever. None is so rich or mighty that he cannot get along without it and none is so poor that he cannot be made rich by it. Yet a smile cannot be bought, begged, borrowed, or stolen, for it is something that is of no value to anyone until it is given away. Some people are too tired to give you a smile. Give them one of yours, as none needs a smile so much as he who has no more to give.

Si Gilbert Paul

Hulyo 2009

Madalas ko siya nakikita sa simbahan. Ooops sandali lang, hindi po siya seminarista at mas lalong hindi naman po siya pari. Nakikita ko siya ngunit hindi ko pinagtutuunan ng pansin dahil hindi naman kami magkakilala at walang salitang “attraction” marahil dahil walang alinlangan na magkalayo ang aming edad.

Nagsimula po ang lahat dahil sa kwento ng isang maestra at magbubukid. Mula noon madalas ko na siyang napapansin dahil naintriga ako kung bakit siya pa (sa kakapanood mo ng SNN!). Nag-umpisa akong magsaliksik (ah, researcher ka na pala!) ng mga bagay-bagay tungkol sa kanya (ah..stalker! hindi naman po!). 

Isa siyang simple, responsable at mabait na indibidwal (how did you know? I can see it in his eyes..hehe!). Sa pisikal na kaanyuan, siya ay matangkad (ayan, nung bata ka kasi hindi ka natutulog sa tanghali), maputi (ah, Nido at Nescafe 3in1), hindi naman siya sobrang gwapo (alam ko hindi ako maganda, medyo lang..hehe!) ngunit maganda ang kanyang mga mata pati ang kanyang ngiti (ayun naman pala!). Kaya lang pinagtatawanan ko ng palihim yung estilo ng kanyang buhok (lagot ka!). Ngunit habang napapansin ko siya napapagtanto ko na humahanga na pala ako sa kanya (yes, ang baduy mo pala!).

Sa katunayan, nagpapansin na nga ako sa kanya sa pamamagitan ng makabagong teknolohiya:

una, sa friendster - hindi ko alam kung paano ko siya nahanap basta nag-browse lang ako. Samakatuwid dito ko nalaman ang mga impormasyon tungkol sa kanya. Tinanggap naman niya ang aking hiling na maging isang ka-friendster (kinilig ka naman!) 

ikalawa, sa cellphone - nakapost kasi sa friendster niya yung multiply site niya. Tapos sa multiply site nakita ko yung number niya, kaya naisip ko na magpadala ng mensahe ngunit hindi siya tumugon (sad! ayan, ikaw kasi!). Pero tanggap ko naman dahil inaasahan ko din naman na maaaring mangyari ang hindi niya pagtugon (okay fine! pampalubag loob!) 

at ikatlo, sa yahoo messenger - (ah, never say die!) nakita ko din sa friendster yung ym id niya. Kinausap naman niya ako ngunit hindi na naulit (aww..sorry ka nalang!). Sa madaling salita, hindi ko napukaw ang kanyang pansin (tsk! wrong strategies! Sumulat ka nalang kay ate charo o kaya kay joe d’ mango para makatulong).

Dahil sa mga kahihiyan na nagawa ko hindi ko alam kung paano humarap sa kanya. Kapag nakikita ko siya sobrang umiiwas ako dahil hindi ko siya kayang tingnan. Andyan yung nagkita kami sa isang lugar, sa sobrang hindi ko akalain na nandoon din siya (yes, serendipity), ang ginawa ko tumakbo ako ng mabilis para makaiwas sa kanya (the flash! ano kaya yun?!). Tapos sa simbahan, kapag wala akong pagpipilian kundi mapadaan sa harapan niya (whether you like it or not!), sobrang nakatungo lang ako o kaya naman sa iba nakatingin (stiff neck!). May pagkakataon din na dumaan ako sa likod niya at sa sobrang kakaiwas ko nabangga ako sa nakaparadang kotse tapos sabay napaharap pa siya sa akin (sus! ano naman kasalanan ng kotse sa’yo?!). Sa totoo lang hindi ko din siya maintindihan, nung minsan kasi tumingin siya sa akin, napakaseryoso tapos umirap pa (ah, sweet naman pala! haha!). Napatungo nalang ako, natawa at napabulong, hala! bakit ganito ‘to makatingin? hijo, may problema ba? (nobody but you…ginugulo mo daw ang buhay niya!).

Sa kabila ng lahat, hindi ko alam kung bakit hanggang ngayon may paghanga pa rin ako sa’yo. Kapag naiisip ko yung mga nakaraang sitwasyon, napapangiti nalang ako. Ngunit dahil sa mga bagay na ito, dumadating ka sa punto na kailangan matutong makuntento dahil may mga bagay na hindi dapat pangunahan samakatuwid hayaan nalang ito na kusang dumating sa iyong buhay.

Tap my Heart

I'm browsing Friendster pages until I’ve read a comment which undeniably inspires me (well-said). I’d like to give credits to Chanelle's page and her friend Olivia (whom the comment came from). They’re college friends of my cousin, Jackie, whom I was connected. Moreover, this is how it goes…

Don’t be frustrated if no one seems to want the heart you’re putting out there. Someone in the universe deserves it, and in the right time, he will be revealed to you. Don’t waste your time offering your heart to people who will not see it for what it’s worth. Instead, hold it and nurture it. Nurture the love inside you, and save it for the person worth giving it to. When that person comes, you’d be so happy you gave it whole—without the scratches—and lovingly nourished by all patience you’ve spent on striving to be a better person. Let our prayers not be that we find the right one soon…but that we become the right person for that person destined to be with us for the rest of our lives.

Life is like a mirror, we get the best results when we smile at it. : )

Magbubukid and Maestra

May 2008
Summer

There was a young man. He is living with a simple life. He spent his everyday life at the rice field, the land owned by his family. He is a family-oriented individual with a sense of responsibility. One day as he walks through the road under the bushy trees, suddenly a young lady catches his eyes. The lady glanced towards his direction. She dressed simplicity with grace. Further, she values her family. She completes her day with the children inside an institution. That particular moment is the beginning of their story. Everything happens for a reason. The friendship binds them together. Until they continue the journey as committed individuals.

Unfortunately, this story happens in a dream. In reality these two people are worlds apart. They were born in different generation. They grew up six years apart. She is older than him. She is an ordinary girl and he is a simple yet extraordinary guy. The woman started to become aware of him because she dreamed of this young man out of nowhere. She had a question in her mind “Of all people, why did I saw this young man in my dream?” despite the fact that she doesn’t even know this young man. Though they see each other but they never meet. Until it came to such time that she realized that she unexpectedly falls to this young man. The woman never expects because he shows disinterest to her and he starts to fall in love with somebody else. She decided to remain quietly in love with the young man. Time can make a feeling fade. She will be moving on and waits for the one she truly deserves.

Are they too late or too soon? God knows if they are meant to be or they deserve to be with somebody else. God has plan for these two individuals.