Total Eclipse of the Heart

When do we know that it is destiny? Will he catch me if I fall? Will he be mine or he may be the same person who will pass by in my life? Shall I give myself a chance or choose to let him go?

Life has full of unforeseen reasons on how long you should hold on and when do you need to let go. Whatever life may bring what matter is we should learn how to overcome its consequences. No matter how weak we are, at the end of the day we just realized that we're standing still and our faith strengthens us. We will be strong enough to believe that we survived and keep on moving on towards the direction where we found every piece of ourselves. We learn how to grow as a matured individual. It’s the circle of life. Someone will walked away, will leave you behind, will gives you pain but you should never let go of the faith that there's somebody undoubtedly meant for you.

Better to be Unknown

December 30, 2009
Wednesday
11.00 pm

You are a stranger, as well I
At first, I don't mind or care who you are
I see you around, but there's no magic behind
He's 20 and I'm 26, this can't be

I woke up one morning, asking myself why
Of all people, I dreamed of this young man
It's a tale of two individuals born six-years apart
In spite of differences they fell in love

It's inexplicable because it's you and me
You don't even glance nor smile at me
There's no gesture that may catch my heart
In reality we're worlds apart

When I saw you, I'd rather changed my way
One day you saw me, you suddenly turned away
When you look at me, I pretended I didn't notice
One day I look at you, you snob at me

I don't know what's going on your mind
Maybe you also have questions like mine
But it bothers me, are you conceited?
Maybe it’s inadvertent but it cause pain inside

One day, a sweet surprise from Above
For the first time, you showed me your smile
Is this real or maybe a dream?
Undeniably, there's bliss inside me

I don't know what happened as days goes by
I never see you around for a long time
Do I mistakenly thought it was a start
And maybe there's no such thing on your mind

But then, thank you for your gentle gesture
I started to fall but there's something wrong
Maybe our story has no end nor beginning
Instead, we remained as strangers as before.

A smile costs nothing but gives much. It enriches those who receive without making poorer those who give. It takes but a moment, but the memory of it sometimes lasts forever. None is so rich or mighty that he cannot get along without it and none is so poor that he cannot be made rich by it. Yet a smile cannot be bought, begged, borrowed, or stolen, for it is something that is of no value to anyone until it is given away. Some people are too tired to give you a smile. Give them one of yours, as none needs a smile so much as he who has no more to give.

Si Gilbert Paul

Hulyo 2009

Madalas ko siya nakikita sa simbahan. Ooops sandali lang, hindi po siya seminarista at mas lalong hindi naman po siya pari. Nakikita ko siya ngunit hindi ko pinagtutuunan ng pansin dahil hindi naman kami magkakilala at walang salitang “attraction” marahil dahil walang alinlangan na magkalayo ang aming edad.

Nagsimula po ang lahat dahil sa kwento ng isang maestra at magbubukid. Mula noon madalas ko na siyang napapansin dahil naintriga ako kung bakit siya pa (sa kakapanood mo ng SNN!). Nag-umpisa akong magsaliksik (ah, researcher ka na pala!) ng mga bagay-bagay tungkol sa kanya (ah..stalker! hindi naman po!). 

Isa siyang simple, responsable at mabait na indibidwal (how did you know? I can see it in his eyes..hehe!). Sa pisikal na kaanyuan, siya ay matangkad (ayan, nung bata ka kasi hindi ka natutulog sa tanghali), maputi (ah, Nido at Nescafe 3in1), hindi naman siya sobrang gwapo (alam ko hindi ako maganda, medyo lang..hehe!) ngunit maganda ang kanyang mga mata pati ang kanyang ngiti (ayun naman pala!). Kaya lang pinagtatawanan ko ng palihim yung estilo ng kanyang buhok (lagot ka!). Ngunit habang napapansin ko siya napapagtanto ko na humahanga na pala ako sa kanya (yes, ang baduy mo pala!).

Sa katunayan, nagpapansin na nga ako sa kanya sa pamamagitan ng makabagong teknolohiya:

una, sa friendster - hindi ko alam kung paano ko siya nahanap basta nag-browse lang ako. Samakatuwid dito ko nalaman ang mga impormasyon tungkol sa kanya. Tinanggap naman niya ang aking hiling na maging isang ka-friendster (kinilig ka naman!) 

ikalawa, sa cellphone - nakapost kasi sa friendster niya yung multiply site niya. Tapos sa multiply site nakita ko yung number niya, kaya naisip ko na magpadala ng mensahe ngunit hindi siya tumugon (sad! ayan, ikaw kasi!). Pero tanggap ko naman dahil inaasahan ko din naman na maaaring mangyari ang hindi niya pagtugon (okay fine! pampalubag loob!) 

at ikatlo, sa yahoo messenger - (ah, never say die!) nakita ko din sa friendster yung ym id niya. Kinausap naman niya ako ngunit hindi na naulit (aww..sorry ka nalang!). Sa madaling salita, hindi ko napukaw ang kanyang pansin (tsk! wrong strategies! Sumulat ka nalang kay ate charo o kaya kay joe d’ mango para makatulong).

Dahil sa mga kahihiyan na nagawa ko hindi ko alam kung paano humarap sa kanya. Kapag nakikita ko siya sobrang umiiwas ako dahil hindi ko siya kayang tingnan. Andyan yung nagkita kami sa isang lugar, sa sobrang hindi ko akalain na nandoon din siya (yes, serendipity), ang ginawa ko tumakbo ako ng mabilis para makaiwas sa kanya (the flash! ano kaya yun?!). Tapos sa simbahan, kapag wala akong pagpipilian kundi mapadaan sa harapan niya (whether you like it or not!), sobrang nakatungo lang ako o kaya naman sa iba nakatingin (stiff neck!). May pagkakataon din na dumaan ako sa likod niya at sa sobrang kakaiwas ko nabangga ako sa nakaparadang kotse tapos sabay napaharap pa siya sa akin (sus! ano naman kasalanan ng kotse sa’yo?!). Sa totoo lang hindi ko din siya maintindihan, nung minsan kasi tumingin siya sa akin, napakaseryoso tapos umirap pa (ah, sweet naman pala! haha!). Napatungo nalang ako, natawa at napabulong, hala! bakit ganito ‘to makatingin? hijo, may problema ba? (nobody but you…ginugulo mo daw ang buhay niya!).

Sa kabila ng lahat, hindi ko alam kung bakit hanggang ngayon may paghanga pa rin ako sa’yo. Kapag naiisip ko yung mga nakaraang sitwasyon, napapangiti nalang ako. Ngunit dahil sa mga bagay na ito, dumadating ka sa punto na kailangan matutong makuntento dahil may mga bagay na hindi dapat pangunahan samakatuwid hayaan nalang ito na kusang dumating sa iyong buhay.

Tap my Heart

I'm browsing Friendster pages until I’ve read a comment which undeniably inspires me (well-said). I’d like to give credits to Chanelle's page and her friend Olivia (whom the comment came from). They’re college friends of my cousin, Jackie, whom I was connected. Moreover, this is how it goes…

Don’t be frustrated if no one seems to want the heart you’re putting out there. Someone in the universe deserves it, and in the right time, he will be revealed to you. Don’t waste your time offering your heart to people who will not see it for what it’s worth. Instead, hold it and nurture it. Nurture the love inside you, and save it for the person worth giving it to. When that person comes, you’d be so happy you gave it whole—without the scratches—and lovingly nourished by all patience you’ve spent on striving to be a better person. Let our prayers not be that we find the right one soon…but that we become the right person for that person destined to be with us for the rest of our lives.

Life is like a mirror, we get the best results when we smile at it. : )

Magbubukid and Maestra

May 2008
Summer

There was a young man. He is living with a simple life. He spent his everyday life at the rice field, the land owned by his family. He is a family-oriented individual with a sense of responsibility. One day as he walks through the road under the bushy trees, suddenly a young lady catches his eyes. The lady glanced towards his direction. She dressed simplicity with grace. Further, she values her family. She completes her day with the children inside an institution. That particular moment is the beginning of their story. Everything happens for a reason. The friendship binds them together. Until they continue the journey as committed individuals.

Unfortunately, this story happens in a dream. In reality these two people are worlds apart. They were born in different generation. They grew up six years apart. She is older than him. She is an ordinary girl and he is a simple yet extraordinary guy. The woman started to become aware of him because she dreamed of this young man out of nowhere. She had a question in her mind “Of all people, why did I saw this young man in my dream?” despite the fact that she doesn’t even know this young man. Though they see each other but they never meet. Until it came to such time that she realized that she unexpectedly falls to this young man. The woman never expects because he shows disinterest to her and he starts to fall in love with somebody else. She decided to remain quietly in love with the young man. Time can make a feeling fade. She will be moving on and waits for the one she truly deserves.

Are they too late or too soon? God knows if they are meant to be or they deserve to be with somebody else. God has plan for these two individuals.